And so I’ve learnt that I am awful at goodbyes. This past week has been filled with them and I’ve left behind some amazing people. Its not so much the physical act of leaving someone that I suck at, its that at the point of our departure from eachothers lives I just cant muster the words I want to say;
How amazing they are, how influential they have been and how grateful I am to have had the pleasure of meeting them.
Emotions are pretty much a foreign concept to me and I’ve never been good at talking honestly about feelings and showing what I want to. The second it comes to saying what I know I should say, my tongue trips over itself and the words fall inaudibly from my mouth and I end up pulling my best Hugh Grant smile and saying something like “see you later mate”.
Even though my goodbyes are awful I just hope that in our time together, I’ve been able to express what that person means to me. So when I do give my crappy goodbye they’re safe in the knowledge that I love them, and they know that with all their heart.
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